Taking Big Steps for little feet.

At the old age of 21 I am having to make some big big decisions. For those of you who know me I HATE making decisions. I think it is the worst form of torture. Lately my knew decision I trying to make is "What is my next step for school?" We are in a major major bind for money. I need to finish school and get a job. I want to start over so badly in school. I have messed up my schooling so bad. I regret all of my school choices.

I want to move. Away from here. For Ella ultimately but also for Drew,School,Everything ! The only thing stopping me is my family. Maybe I can convince them to move with me :) Our rent is up in December so we will see.

 The wedding in coming along nicely. That is another project with lots of decision making. BLAH! There is so much to do in so little time but we really have made huge progress. I am so excited to wear my dress. And to stand up in front of everyone and commit myself to my best friend and the love of my life !

On the progress of my diet I have lost 16.5 pounds. Thank the Lord! It's been hard but it's worth it. I am out of all my maternity clothes. I still have a long ways to go but I have got to take it one step at  time.
Sunday I had lunch with one of my BFFL's @Angelakarenphotography. My little baby is already 5 months so we took her 5 month pictures. I love them so much. Here is a few , Enjoy !

My beautiful flower !

Her smile lights up my world

Getting teeth <3

She is a total joy !

so cute

Favorite !

Mommy and me !

Diet day 5

I have to say dieting is no fun but the results of dieting are. I am officially but in my pre-pregnancy clothes !!!!!!!! There is nothing more rewarding. Bye Bye maternity jeans and belly bands. Hello fabulous !

Anyways , to try and keep my mind of eating. I have been coming up with new hobbies. I have been working on Ella's baby book, finished my belly book, sterilizing every thing, scrap booking and of course shopping.

 Yesterday I had coffee with my friend Angela. She take beautiful photos. And offered to take some of Ella. I of course said yes. We thought it would be cool to do her forth of July pictures. We took Ella to a park by the river for the first set of photos. It was very windy. She was so amazed by the trees swaying in the breeze. It was so cute. Then we went over the bridge to the beach. We are so blessed to live within minutes of the beach.

She got some beautiful pictures of Ella. I am so thankful. I love being able to document my beautiful little baby's life. Here is a few enjoy !

Sweet baby

so tiny

cutest baby ever

sitting up like a big girl

yay !

Bye Bye Baby Weight !

Today is day 1 of my new life style change. I don't want to call it a "Diet". I feel like if I call it a diet I will set myself up for failure.

It is hard. I won't lie. I love love love to eat and eat bad. If you can deep fry it I will eat it. And obviously it shows.

I want to be happy with myself again. I want to lose 60 lbs total. My first goal is 30. I know I can do it. It is just a huge adjustment.

My Fridge

Here we go  ...... 

The start of a Smoothie

Cooked spinach wrapped in Chicken breast 

Wedding update !

We have officially picked a wedding date . The chapel is booked and we met with the wedding coordinator today at our reception venue(TBA) ! I am beyond excited :) I can officially announce that I am marrying my best friend on September 10, 2011 . I can't believe those words are coming out of my mouth.

The wedding in going to be 80-90 people. I am having a hard time picking colors if anyone has any suggestions. I was refereed by my friend Leanza to a wedding photographer Leah Jean . I am in love with her work and I am in luck she has an opening for our date !

I emailed at least 4 DJ's. I won't lie they make me nervous. This is what brings life to your party. If anyone has any suggestions , I would love love to hear them.

85 days ! I need a major crash diet. Who wants to be my work out buddy ? I am considering a used wedding dress. I just do not find it reasonable to spend thousands of dollars on a dress I will wear only once. I think it will be my way of going green for my wedding.

Anyway I have babbled enough. We are both very excited ! Tomorrow I am starting project skinny (yoga time !) and we are going ring shopping !! God is good.

New Project !

My mom is a creative memories consultant. I have a new found love for the online version of it. I found on the site there is an option to make calenders. I want to take pictures of Ella and make it into a calender for our families. I think this would be so cute and something they would love so much. So I need help with each month .

January - I can't think of anything original .
February- I want to dress Ella up like a valentine . Since of course her bday is so close to it , she is like our little Valentine !
March- Kiss me I'm Irish ?
April -Bunnies Baskets ?
May- help ? Flower field or something 
June - Fathers day - maybe something like Daddy's little girl ?
July - Fourth of July ! Red white blue
August - maybe put glasses on her and give her a ruler for back to school
September- no idea help
October - Pumpkin Maybe carve one out and put her in it and carve her name in the front.
November- Make her a little Indian or Pilgrim
December- Make look like a little present


 I dont know just throwing ideas around.
love , Jennikah

WEDDING GAMES !!!

Today it really hit me I am getting married. I am marrying my best friend . How lucky am I ? This week we signed the papers and put down the deposit for the wedding chapel. It is the cutest little place . I am so excited.

 Then today I got the best news ! We are doing this very last minute and I was so worried we were not going to find a reception venue. I received a email from the wedding coordinator at the place I have always wanted to have my reception at. She had WONDERFUL news. They just had a recent cancellation for the date I requested ! I am so beyond excited !

Any ways I want to play a game. No not a creepy game from the Saw movies. Get your mind out of the gutter. :) I want to play a wedding game. I want you to help me plan my wedding ! We are planning an entire wedding by 9-10-11 . Yes my fiance picked that date . I love it. So stayed tuned. I know everyone that is married has seen something that they wished they would of done at their wedding. It may be too late for you but it's not for me. So help me out. I NEED your help !

P.S This is a low budget wedding. I major DYI project . But all ideas are welcome you never know.  :)


 We have no dress, no colors, no flowers, no theme, nothing nothing nothing . We are a blank canvas wait for your wonderful ideas !

Memorial Day

Today is Ella first Memorial Day . A day for me  until this year was just a 3 day weekend. This year my baby brother enlisted in the army. Why until now did I show no interest in this holiday ? We never talked about in school. My parent's never really mentioned anything. My friends just brushed it off as another day off of school.

I  decided today I would do some research on the holiday. A woman by the name of Moina Michael wrote this poem that was inspired by memorial day :

We cherish too, the Poppy red

That grows on fields where valor led,

 It seems to signal to the skies

 That blood of heroes never dies.

She then went on to have the idea to wear red poppies on Memorial Day to honor those that had died protecting our freedom. She sold poppies to her neighbors and co-workers. Eventually this movement spread to other countries.

The national poppy movement died out in America. But in our home I want to start a new tradition. I want every year to take Ella to buy a poppy flower in rememberance of memorial day. We will talk about the brave men who fight for our country. Brave men like my brother. I pray for his safety everyday and I am beyond proud of my baby brother. He chose to be selfless and to help protect his country. Just like the thousands of men out there fighting to keep us safe.

Happy Memorial Day ! Never forget those men that gave it all up to protect us !